happy birthday to my mum

happy birthday to my mum 

hahah

we are happy having dinner together hahah

and hmm ya

and i really decide to lose weight
:(

i always get mad

yesterday i cant stop saying something very bad words to a person but i just cant stop
how harsh i am after i know the reason i finally realized why i just did
words hurts ppl we love when u saying it u wont realize how hurt it is
hurt ppl who we love thats very bad
but sometimes it just will happen
i will try to stop
sorry to ppl ive hurt

today is kinda WASTED

today still rains whole day and i woke  up at 10:15 i guess then i think im lucky cos i didn't late for school then i  wear big jacket and eat a cup of instant noodle yuck as it used to be but i finished it and i go out it still raining so i wear my tiny rain coat and ride my old bike to the station ...
when i arrived the train station the station broadcast there is have some ppl dead in other station and the train cant go to the station i want to go so i ride my bike again back to home take off all my wet clothes and feel cold sit in front of my pc now and i hope next week will be whole week cloudy days cos i love cloudy day:P
and

today's weird

today my family woke up so early and we go to our grandma's funeral
i feel weird is because when i in her funeral i almost faint and feel i want to vomit !
my mom told me that is cos my grandma is punishing me so
i don't know why i be like that??it's weird
it happened  twice
when i saw her coffin i were feel real bad
i don't know why
all is weird i hope i never made my grandma angry
when i feel i will faint i told my mom she said my face is getting so pale
maybe it's because i woke up too early?
or whaat or??