back from funeral

today my mom cried and when i saw her crying   i think i have to be strong to protect her
but i still drop some tears then i try to let her feel better
if my mom left me i will be so sad
i think i will cry a lot
today rains a lot
but i like the rainy day

today

today is a cloudy day
and i went to see my grandma but something changed
she being happy in heaven now
i feel bad about this chinese year just because i were lazy and not want to go my mom;s old home
and i didnt see her when she were alive
today i went there and make some money to her
kind of sad about that though i were not very close to her
and i guess my cousin is kind of angry about us cos of that
tomorrow we will go to see her last time
hope her be very happy in the heaven
R.I.P grandma

I dreamed 2 dreams lately

One day  afternoon my mom call me but I were in English class so I cut it first time then my mom call again after I knew my grandma dead at night I dreamed weird dream I have no dream for a very long time I dreamed I were in the heavy rain and a guy hold my hand and we running in heavy rain and we run to a house there were nothing and the guy turn his face to me and smile at me then I woke up the second dream is I saw dead body which were separate apart and bloody and I woke up ha weird

Kinda lucky now

Ya today is Monday and im now in class and. What I think becomes truth yes I hope I will not have bad luck anymore but it's not possible well I hope I will not always think in bad things but my brain is wierd lol that's bad the rose in the yard is blossom isn't it beautiful haha yes fighting fighting bitches go fuck theirselves not my business ya

i got tricked but i still fall into it

im so dont know how to say

haha

like a fool for a thing

in a big damn trick

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many ppl tell me their secret

i know a lot worldwide lol 

but 

i wasnt have any secret but

since i faught with ppl i got some

i got many secrets and ppl got many secrets about me too

but they fuck their self i keep going my way

anyways

growing up ways have many mistakes well

now is a big timing for me

im not going to be in school anymore

i have to earn my money

but i have no fucking work experiences 

haha

poor b i t c h