say good bye to August & summer vacation

wow!!

time past so fast

soon the school will begin

i guess i slept all my summer vacation

well ~ everybody knows that

lol

it's kinda waste i know but i still love sleeping

wow

today i found a song

when listen to it

i feel so sad and beautiful!!!

can't stop repeating that~

i put it in my blog

ha ha

very very chinese style~

my poor dog　still feels lazy

but i think she is better now~

ha ha~

i love my pillow!

hahahha

i have eyelashes though my eyes are small

hahahha

well

today i still slept a lot

my dinner lunch snack breakfast!

i went out to buy it

my poor dog!

she was hurt by a knife

so terrible

i guess she feels so hurt now!

me~ha ha

the wind was so big

cool outside and

small rain outside

and big wind

typhoon comes to taiwan soon

hi birthday:D

today is my birthday!!

Saturday~

many ppl say happy birthday to me!

i'm so happy!

today i give a thank card to my mum

i do it every year

i think it's meaningful

ha ha~

thanks a lot

to gave me birth

today just as usual

nothing special

that's what i want

i don't need a party

just hang out with some true friends

and family

that's what i want

ha ha

anyway i'm happy

bday coming~**what's the wish?

if ask me what's my birthday wish?

i'll answer i want to change my dad

i hate him!

but i won't let him knows that!

and he won't know that

he don't even say happy birthday to me

and he won't know i have a blog like this

i tell many things here~

and he is totally not thoughtful

he is not gentle

he is very mean

he always think he is humor

but many ppl tell me that's not humor

just like to tease him or her

well

i hate him

always be so serious so mean~

i hate him

today's me~

ha ha~ look like a little boy

i want my hair that short

it's so cool~if have so short hair

!!

and i eat out with my friends today

cuz tomorrow will be my birthday

ha ha

i feel so happy with them

so happy!!:)

we met at same high school!

and we all are funny person~:))

they give me nail polish as my gift~

i'm happy

purple~~!!!color i like it:))

see~we are happy

after we eat we went to the movie together

this is the movie~

very touching and interesting!!!

called 那些年 , 我們一起追的女孩

one more sleepy day~**

today i so tired at the morning

cuz i didn't sleep much last night

i want to go to school

so i can escape this hateful home!

so many acnes on face i hate that:"(

it's 2:49 now i feel so sleepy but i wait

for the worker to replace my tel

so tired!!now:(

sometimes i think what am i doing now

but til now no answer~

only admire sth

ya ya!!!tomorrow i'll eat out with my

high school friends!!happy

it's afternoon now~

i'm thinking what to cook for the dinner tonight

hmm...

it's always hard to think about

three more days will be my birthday

ha ha ha

i'm very excited~

mum says she will eat out with me

i hate my fath

er

but he treat me good sometimes

but i still don't like him

today i still sleep in my bed after ate breakfast

small buns is my breakfast!!always

i love it!!!

and my hair grows fast

i want to try long hair so i keep it til now

omg

it's so hot to keep long hair in hot summer

it's raining outside heavy rain i like it!! because the temperature will lower after big rain!!

that's good ha

and today i sign up one more social site call vf just bored

ha

well well this is today i guess

i'm getting whiter

i'm happy~

cuz i eat very very much vitamin C everyday and it works

hahha

maybe after 16:00 my brother called me

i don't have umbrella can u bring me one?

ok ok ! then i go out and took him back~

heavy rain recently

oh oh~bloody!!

i hate period!!!

that's so bloody!!oh~

but as a girl i have to suffer this of course

it means i can pregnant ~ ha:D

hmm... i hope i don't have period

ha ha ha i know it's childish to think about that

and boyish! sometime i think that why i should wear a bra?why i should have period!!all annoyed me!!well~but i still do these ~

all because i'm a girl

ha ha

yeah ~ i'm a girl

some times period make my belly feel so hurt

then i'll go eat some black chocolate

ha ha i love black chocolate!!

yummy!and lower fat ~ and make me feel no hurt

: D

soon i'll be 20 ~ i'll become an adult wow ~ time goes fast ~

i feel happy ~ ya

birthday always in summer vacation so i'm used to it

ha ha~

when i was sad i'm glad somebody listen to me

though i still cried

but i feel better now!

thank you

i'm sad :'(

today i guess it's a sad day for me!

today i feel so tired

i feel sad

i feel helpless

i feel mad

i feel i'm useless

the problem has bother me for a long time

today my period come again

and my parents fight again

what can i do when they fight?

i'm not a super man

i can't always save her

i'm a girl

i'm also scare

the problem is......

i talked to my mum today

she told me that's not all her fault

think about what your dad do?

how can i know

i think that's bad!

if i were a strong man i will protect you

but i'm a girl

a weak girl

i can't beat dad

it's a sad day

i wish the problem can be solve

!

it's a sad day i hope i can cry a lot

i can't stop my tears falling

it's so pain

la la la about my back

today my mum bought me new bras

i told her i need to buy bras

then she brings me to buy today

lol

thank her so much

look so beautiful!!!

we bought same bra together

hahaha

but her size is bigger~:)

one of the embarrassed thing is

i have acnes on my back

i hate the acnes

so i gonna deal with that

ha

i buy some scrub

and some acnes facial wash

to my back

it seems get better

i hope one day that will be look like this!!!

i'll keep protect my back good keep it clean!!

:)

hey today

today is a boring day also

i think i should make some money for myself , i can't always use they gave me

that's kinda sucks!ha

well i going to not eat lunch and dinner go back to my old way to be thinner ! that's kind hard when you feel hungry but soon you will be thinner somebody will say you can't do this that's not healthy to your body but the thin girls who are really use the healthy way to loose weight?! i have try that way before it seems no use to me!you don't want me t use that way?then don't call me a fat girl!you want me to have a bf?then i should be thinner and dress beautiful i was very very fat before i loose 20 kgs

but the girls now seems sick !so i gonna to be the sick one! sorry i have to:(

and some one call me like a man or a boy why? then

i won't change myself to be so feminine !!that will be not me anymore!why? can i just like now~well~

i still a girl~ they can change me!i don't want to be a fake person! i'm funny, boyish that's me

look at the photo she is so beautiful! i want my hair to be like this:)! my friend always made fun of my hair~who cares~if i protect my hair well it will get well!!who care what you say ! who cares ! i was misunderstood as a boy!that time i was laying on my friend's bed her father came in and thought i were a boy!well~maybe i can be androgyne or something!ahhahaha

that will not be a problem to me!! i believe!

things will go well~*

i sleep a lot

after the sasgimi day~

i was so tired

so that night i went to bed

very early

and slept almost the next day's afternoon

i guess it's about 1pm~

hee hee

blah~

i so hate my brace

annoyed me a lot

but for my beautiful tooth

i must bear it!!!

lol

well ~i feel so good to sleep so late

i mopped floor~

and it becomes so clean!!!

and i make one new korean friend!!

she is nice

am i look like Korean?!

she said yes!!

ha

i don't know why?

people told me

i look like Korean

haha

maybe if i speak Korean

no one will find out that i am a Taiwanese

!!!

that'll be fun!!!

she live in Seoul~~~

wowowow

i'm jealous!!!

Seoul~the capital of korea

wow!must be so beautiful there!! i guess

but she can't speak fluent Korean now!!

aww....i'm full now~

after ate my breakfast~**

feel so good now:D

~

and i dreamed weird dreams recently

i feel so weird

one is ....

i was in a school

there was a murder

but i don't see any dead body

but some blood there

there was a long hall there

i kept walking on there

i feel nothing but a little bit scare

then i walk out of the hall

there was a big lake

the lake's water look like dirt yellow

and many people around the lake

a kid boy

who was calling my name

then he ran away~

i was following him

there are some big wood flow on the lake

the boy jumped on the wood

i want to follow him

but suddenly

two giant appear

and my mum calling

then i woke up~

hi my blog!

i signed up this yesterday
because i think i should write a diary everyday
if i write about myself everyday
then i will know what i have done every day
if i was dead somebody can read my diary
lol
today i woke up very early
because i can't fall asleep last night
so now i feel
sleepy
i woke up at 7:00am
because my room have a big mirror
that's very big
almost 180cm i guess
my mum will come to my room
then i will woke up
so hate
when she left
she don't close my door
i feel so mad about that
:(
she don't care even my a/c still on
omg
i hate her
she also a home breaker
my family was messed up by her
so i don't really like her actually
sometimes i scold her very much in my mind
but she is my mum
i feel hungry and sleepy now
i have to go out today
with friends
ya~*
today is sashimi day
i'll go out at 10:00am
i have to put some sunscreen on
because the hot sunshine out side
and my hair grows longer and longer
i like long hair

because that make me look feminine
and look more like a girl
ha
because my behavior
someone misunderstood that i was a boy
aww...
that bad
my period
soon will come
so

my face so many acnes
so i hate period!
my face so fat
ha ha
and look like a child
look very young
actually i'm almost 20
soon my birthday will coming
wow
i'm back from the sashimi
from taipei
today was lucky
my friends
my junior high school friend gave me a ride
because she need to go to taipei as well
then we took train to taipei
the train was so full so hot
finally we arrived taipei
then we went to the sashimi~~
we are so full after that
ha ah
then we go to the stores

my legs so hard now~xd